tahun ni masuk tahun ketiga puasa dekat sydney, jujur banyaaaaak sangat beza dengan dekat malaysia. buka sederhana, sahur sederhana, raya sederhana la lagi compare dengan malaysia. walau bazar setiap ahad, tapi sebab kena beli dengan duit sendiri so beli untuk cukup kenyang perut time buka sahur sikit2.

first year 1/10 puasa dekat glebe. then masuk hall which make life easier, sahur tinggal panaskan je. then makan, the next year dgn this year puasa dekat rumah. enough said, this year we are more sederhana compared to last year, bajet kurang sangat je sebenarnya. tapi cukup makan semua orang.

i had a chance to do terawikh dekat uni last tuesday. lepas habis lab pergi surau makan then solat, then macam fikir bila lagi kan nak rasa terawikh dekat uni ni. solat sini macam lain sikit. tak ada bacaan2 between 2 rakaat tu. terus je sambung. tapi haritu baca panjang la amat sangat. dah terapung2 dah rasa badan. perasaan dia mcm dah give up nak tunggu imam habis baca then ehhh dah rukuk. tiap rakaat macam tu. haha. tapi alhamdullilah la. ada jugak peluang nak rasa macam ni kan. tahun ketiga baru rasa. aku rasa sebab before2 ni lab semua habis pukul 5. third year ni je habis pukul 6 so tak ada pilihan. kena jugak solat dekat uni.

raya? biasa jeeee. sabtu or ahad ni. ontah. sebab ada orang start puasa lain2 then aku start puasa pun mcm lain dari orang malaysia lain. so raya lain la kot. paling lambat raya ahad. ok saja la. tak ada beza pun. raya pergi makan rumah orang. then balik fikir nak buat kerja. fikir je la.

i was going through people's blog, then there was a blog listing the marriage problem nowadays.takut gila baca. takpe la kan. lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik kan. nak dapat yang elok2. kena la elok2 kan sikit diri tu.

lately ramai sangat tunang kawin. tipu la kalau kata tak nak sesemua tu. mcm cool la pulak kan kawin masa belajar. tapi kata la kalau aku tunang sekarang kawin sekarang. bukan sebab diri sendiri nak. peer pressure je tuuuuuu. so nina. jangan nak mengada. habis belajar dulu.

being stress with the overload readings, freaking out about the exams, i have all the final exams syndromes, from A to Z.

with the biophysics that kills me with all sorts of equation yg baca tapi tak faham serta rasa tak guna pun nak baca sebab macam tak applicable. with him busy studying .friday, please come faster so i wont feel guilty for being emo .

Finally, i submitted my 8th reports for this semester and just left with the finals, taking most of the science subjects listed does make life more horrible than it used to be.

surprise jugak bila sem ni sedih bila class math habis. lol me. it feels so good when u really being in the class, literally i was in the class all the time but not fully there. seronok pulak belabor math. rasa nak drop semua subject ambik math je.hikhiks.

i have 5 papers and two papers on the same day. hopefully i won't screw any of it. being in third year ni penuh debaran sangat, nak test pun berdebar. semua berdebar. lemah jaunting :D

so basically, i have 20 days till done with all the exams and holiday and 25 more days till i meet you. tak rindu pun. tapi seja gedik. haha

i was searching for motivational quotes so nampak macam supportive sikit bila dia nak exam and in the same time to motivate diri sendiri tapi menajdi diri sendiri, lima saat baca semangat then terus tertidur.

a good friend of mine is getting married, like soon, real soon. knowing her all these while kind of surprise tapi a good surprise and being among the first person to know, make me realize, distances and gender don't really matter in friendship :D

i did the presentation yesterday, mine was the most unprofessional and flowery slides in the room. but i did it. it didn't go very well but felt so relieved, i'm done with the lovely senior experimental physics .

i did on optical pumping and i thought i will be good as there was only one tutor who really knows well about the experiment and yeah. i was 100% right as less questions was asked. i didn't pause too long and by the fact there was a girl before me who paused about 3 minutes and in the end she broke down , i feel good, my bad :) . There was a guy who did on the same topic as i do, and poor him for being asked the questions coming from the things that i pointed out before. i was expecting that question but i didn't prepare the answer as i was planning to use my charm instead of answering. haha. being among the first speaker sometimes gives you the more advantages than you know :D

i have presentation at 2 and yet now i'm busy reading other's blog.

it freaks me out that i feel that i'm well prepared and not being nervous is bad. isn't it? through out uni life i only did 3 presentations and all three were not individual. 2 of them are for physics lab report presentation. i need luck for this i guess :)

i was eating maggie this morning for breakfast and lunch and suddenly it have my childhood smell. weird kan. the thought of missing the childhood passes through the mind and it came across my mind that how much i miss the time when we, the family members stayed under one roof all the time not that we are not these days, we still call it home till now but it is different from then. ok back to the point, the parents should be missing the moment more than we the children do. kannn? supposedly lah. though with the chaos and messiness, we still under one roof.

and now, as time passes by. the house that i grew up in has been sold, but the bad me, i often forget the memories in them, ok now dah recall some of them.

maybe thats why i'm not ready to let anybody in the family to take a step ahead in life, being engaged or married i mean. i'm not ready for it. i just want to have 7 family members for now. :)

from the very first semester and first year i was here, i saw this one old man. my 10th steps equal to his very first step. there was always one part in me wanted to help but since he was walking back from uni he must be strong enough to walk home didn't he. time passes by and now i'm in my third year.

Last week, i saw him again. with the same tempo he struggled to walk. i watched him from top as i was in lab on level 5. it gets me thinking, how it feels to think you can do it but you are not able to do that anymore.

i just wished someone will be there for me when the time come and i want to be there for my parents and future parents in law.hihi for my aunts and uncles and for you too.

One of thousands things that can annoy me to the max is this situation :

A : Hi

Me : Hi, lama tak nampak.

A : Kau la tak pernah nak tegur aku.

I was like, HELLOOOOOOOO, am i the guilty one here, phone doesn't work one way, it works both way, making an effort to be a friend was me before but no longer me, I choose friends who deserve my effortly effort. haha.

B : Sombong sekarang.

This is such a shit starting. I know B might try to be friendly but hellooooooo, again. And you are who?

Why is everybody, why did you? and why did i think, people are arrogant if they didn't say hi first, and why didn't u make an effort to type Hi?

There's a lots of why. Inkuiri yang tinggi aku rasa.

And till now, i still can't accept when people said i need to know latest issues, i had enough with gossips and studies, why should i burden my brain. I've been too hard on it lately, sorry brain. 2 months to go.

I have been living here since Feb 2010. There are ups and downs. First incident ever that brought me down was when laptop stop functioning the way it supposes to. The only connection with the reality was that. Berjaya mengharungi dengan saksama. After drama persendirian. Then every semester, there will be a subject or two or three yang akan buat down. happened all the time.

This las few weeks have been tough for me. Down je sentiasa. Lab has been rough to me. Two chem lab and one physics lab. with 4 hours each. Every week. At the end of the day, comes hurricane destroying the balance emotion i had before.

I need to see something but i don't even know what to see. 

2 more semesters to go.

i have been missing raya lately. basically that wasn't it. i miss nyang out of nowhere. then i miss tok. i miss everybody yang dah pergi. and how different life to be exact raya will be if they are still around. i forget them sometimes and i feel bad for it. i want my raya back.

al-fatihah.

From dark -coogee beach-

oh.ini rumah 

Easter break 2012

wollonggong

- grand pacific drive

-sea cliff bridge

-nantian temple

-uni of wollonggong

-wattamolla

new zealand

macam mana aku nak get over nz kalau lawa sangat macam ni. 

queenstown, nz

otago, nz

winter 2011

Bermula di tapak yang baru tak sesusah bermula semula ditapak yang lama. The changes that happen make me feel awkward being among people. Last time, it was hard to say goodbye because i know how tough the life gonna be here but with the people around me that time, things were much easier than ever thought will be. And now, i miss you people. wish you guys were here making things easier :)